Gone Gone Gone

When life leaves you high and dry
I'll be at your door tonight if you need help, if you need help
I'll shut down the city lights,
I'll lie, cheat, I'll beg and bribe to make you well, to make you well
When enemies are at your door I'll carry you away from war
If you need help, if you need help
Your hope dangling by a string
I'll share in your suffering to make you well, to make you well

Give me reasons to believe that you would do the same for me

And I would do it for you, for you
Baby I'm not moving on
I'll love you long after you're gone
For you, for you
You will never sleep alone
I'll love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone gone gone

When you fall like a statue
I'm gon' be there to catch you
Put you on your feet, you on your feet
And if your well is empty
Not a thing will prevent me
Tell me what you need, what do you need

I surrender honestly
You've always done the same for me

So I would do it for you, for you
Baby I'm not moving on
I'll love you long after you're gone
For you, for you
You would never sleep alone
I'll love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone gone gone

You're my back bone, you're my cornerstone
You're my crutch when my legs stop moving
You're my headstart, you're my rugged heart
You're the pulse that I've always needed
Like a drum baby don't stop beating
Like a drum baby don't stop beating
Like a drum baby don't stop beating
Like a drum my heart never stops beating

For you, for you
Baby I'm not moving on
I'll love you long after you're gone
For you, for you
You would never sleep alone
I'll love you long after you're gone
For you, for you
Baby I'm not moving on
I'll love you long after you're gone
For you, for you
You would never sleep alone
I'll love you long, long after you're gone

Like a drum baby don't stop beating
Like a drum baby don't stop beating
Like a drum baby don't stop beating
Like a drum my heart never stops beating for you
And long after you're gone gone gone
I love you long after you're gone gone goneSend "Gone, Gone, Gone" Ringtone to your cell

Straight Line

All this time we were waiting for each other, all this time I was waiting for you.

Just two months later, and my mind is racing.

Two months ago, I had to remove some pretty significant people from my life. It was painful, it was unexpected, and it wasn't what I wanted. It was a healthy step, though, and it has been a good two months of healing, with significantly less pain and stress in my life.

Two months ago, I had to remove some pretty significant people from my life. And last night, someone really significant came back. Two months ago I was telling God I didn't understand why He took so many away from me, and last night, one returned.

A year and a half ago I finally said goodbye to my best friend. After months of painful abandonment and confusion, I had to close the door to the friendship. I had to stop hoping he would come back. Stop hoping it was all a bad dream, stop hoping he still loved me and still cared about me. I had to stop hoping things would go back to normal.

A year and a half later, and he returns a text message. A year and a half later, and we finally talk.

Shock is the only emotion that can describe what is happening with me right now.

"That would be a dream come true." Dream come true. Interesting phrase. What about the dreams we are too scared to dream? What happens then, when those "dreams" come true?

I have no idea what to think. What to say, what to do. I never imagined this scenario because it was pointless. I never imagined this because I never, EVER thought it would happen.

I figured writing would help, and I sit here with nothing left to say. I can't even sort out the sentences in my mind, let alone get them out of my mouth or onto a piece of paper.

He told me he was back. He promised me he would never again do what he did, he would never leave like that again.

What am I supposed to believe? I have experienced a lot of heartache in my life, but that year getting over him was by far the worst. Do I let that back in? Do I trust him? Do I love him? Do we fix things?

Yet here I sit. About 14 hours since we talked. I sit here, going crazy, wishing he would text me or like something on facebook, or do ANYTHING to reach out and make some kind of connection.

I don't think I have wrapped my mind around him being back. I don't think this has become real yet. I also think my heart is wanting to make up for a year and a half without him in my life.

So what do I do with that?



I'm straight in a straight line, running back to you.