This book is already awesome.
Here's some key factors.
7 keys to losing your burdens:
Surrender
Acceptance
Confession
Responsibility
Forgiveness
Transformation
Preservation
Thursday, July 3, 2008
No turning back, no turning back
So I went to the library today, and got a ton of books on religion, faith, and helping others through tough times. studying up, I guess you could say. I have so much to learn still, and reading is just the first step. I also have decided to read through the entire bible by the time I graduate, starting today. That's pretty much a book every 5 days. Though there are some really short books like Song of Solomon, but then there are the REALLY long books, like Psalms and Proverbs. I'm splitting up Psalms and Proverbs, and I'll read a few each day along with the other book that I am reading, so I don't have 5 days to get all the way through the dozens of Psalms. But anyway, that's my goal. If anyone is interested in doing it with me, feel free to tell me, I would love to fill you in :]
So the first BOOK book I am reading is "What Have You Got To Lose? [experience a richer life by letting go of the things that confuse, clutter, and contaminate]" by Stephen Arterburn. It looks really good, and I've been told he is an excellent author. I also have a bunch by T.D. Jakes, like "God's Leading Lady" and "Woman, thou art Loosed!" I also have one by Robert H. Schuller, who I've heard is a really bad author, but the book sounded really good. I got a few by Leslie Ludy, Debby Jones, and a few others that just sounded like ones that would help me help others while continuing to heal myself. I'm very pleased with my selection. I left the library with a total of 8 books, with a bunch more in mind that I will get as soon as I finish these.
Oh ya, and I also got Religion for Dummies.
:]
Well I'm going to go start the first one, hopefully finish it today so I can get all these books done and get my bible study in by the end of next week. That's my goal, anyway.
oh oh, and random fact of the day.
Did you know that the Bible is the book that is most sold and most stolen in the United States? that cracks me up. i mean technically it's a good thing; even if it's being stolen, at least it's getting out. But it is also one of the least READ books. 90% of homes have a bible, but very few of those people actually READ them,
it's sad
if you have a bible, go pick it up, flip to revelation. it's my favorite book, and it's also amazing. or read john. that one's good too :]
So the first BOOK book I am reading is "What Have You Got To Lose? [experience a richer life by letting go of the things that confuse, clutter, and contaminate]" by Stephen Arterburn. It looks really good, and I've been told he is an excellent author. I also have a bunch by T.D. Jakes, like "God's Leading Lady" and "Woman, thou art Loosed!" I also have one by Robert H. Schuller, who I've heard is a really bad author, but the book sounded really good. I got a few by Leslie Ludy, Debby Jones, and a few others that just sounded like ones that would help me help others while continuing to heal myself. I'm very pleased with my selection. I left the library with a total of 8 books, with a bunch more in mind that I will get as soon as I finish these.
Oh ya, and I also got Religion for Dummies.
:]
Well I'm going to go start the first one, hopefully finish it today so I can get all these books done and get my bible study in by the end of next week. That's my goal, anyway.
oh oh, and random fact of the day.
Did you know that the Bible is the book that is most sold and most stolen in the United States? that cracks me up. i mean technically it's a good thing; even if it's being stolen, at least it's getting out. But it is also one of the least READ books. 90% of homes have a bible, but very few of those people actually READ them,
it's sad
if you have a bible, go pick it up, flip to revelation. it's my favorite book, and it's also amazing. or read john. that one's good too :]
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
And "Best Dad" award goes to...
Ever since the divorce, I have felt completely betrayed and back stabbed by my father. Because, frankly, that's exactly what he did and continues to do. I have tried, for 7 YEARS now, to work things out with him, not only because I knew it was right but because I wanted a dad. But it's not like I suddenly lost him, he hasn't been much of a dad my whole life, with him traveling 24/7 with work and doing his own thing. But it was more obvious when my parents divorced and his nasty side came out. Well, I guess when he decided to show his TRUE side.
They split when I was 9 years old, and we moved here to Illinois when I was 10. I always wanted to be "daddy's little girl", and in a way I kind of was. I loved him and wanted to be around him, but he definitely didn't return the favor. When they first split I was thrown off but I don't remember ever being upset. I mean I was upset, yes, to be moving far away from the people I grew up with, to have people stop talking to our family because "divorce was bad". But I wasn't upset he wouldn't be living there. I knew it wouldn't be much of a change.
By the time I was 12 I had gotten old enough to see who my dad really was, and I also figured out why they divorced in the first place. I lost all respect for my dad, and also found it extremely hard to love him.
I still do.
We've tried counseling. Not only between just the two of us but we actually got a professional to try and help. But my loathing for him was and is so strong, nothing could be changed. I tried to forgive him, and I let my guard down, only for him to hurt me [and my family] again.
Lately, it's only gotten worse. Saying I can't go on family vacations [of course he took that one back, considering his parents would get involved]. Skipping out on child support and getting away with it, turning my sister, my baby sister, my best friend, completely against our family, and then completely taking her OUT of it. Jerking my mom around, jerking ME around, etc. I can't stand that guy. I have so much built up anger towards him that I am sizzling 24/7. And it sucks. I mean I hate the man that is my "father". I hate not having a dad. I always prayed and prayed my mom would remarry so I could have a new, REAL dad, but it didn't happen. Sometimes it hurts horribly, to think I don't really have a father. Usually I can ignore it. But then of course my sister moves in with him and she is the king of his world. she's spoiled, treated like such an angel, when all along he treated me like scum. He would hurt me and disrespect, then pull the whole "i love you and always care" card. BS. The day he can prove it I'll believe it.
But i was sitting on my bed today and I was writing out my prayer requests and just crying thinking about how my dad is totally screwing us [as in my family] over. and I looked over and suddenly it hit me like a brick and I just full out SOBBED. My bible was sitting next to me. And I realized even if my "dad" is gonna be a jerk, I'll always have my REAL dad. and that's God. And oh man did I cry. I've always had a relationship with the Lord but I mean He's my father and He wants to be and do for me exactly what I need. If I need a dad that's what He wants to be. If I need a friend, a protector, a THERAPIST, He is always there to be that. Man did that hit me hard. I wish that had truly sunken in years ago, so I hadn't had as much of my heart shattered. But at least I know now.
Just felt like sharing that... it was quite a hit to the gut.
Quite a nice hit to the gut :]
2 John 1:3 - Grace, mercy, and peace will be with you from God the Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in truth and love.
They split when I was 9 years old, and we moved here to Illinois when I was 10. I always wanted to be "daddy's little girl", and in a way I kind of was. I loved him and wanted to be around him, but he definitely didn't return the favor. When they first split I was thrown off but I don't remember ever being upset. I mean I was upset, yes, to be moving far away from the people I grew up with, to have people stop talking to our family because "divorce was bad". But I wasn't upset he wouldn't be living there. I knew it wouldn't be much of a change.
By the time I was 12 I had gotten old enough to see who my dad really was, and I also figured out why they divorced in the first place. I lost all respect for my dad, and also found it extremely hard to love him.
I still do.
We've tried counseling. Not only between just the two of us but we actually got a professional to try and help. But my loathing for him was and is so strong, nothing could be changed. I tried to forgive him, and I let my guard down, only for him to hurt me [and my family] again.
Lately, it's only gotten worse. Saying I can't go on family vacations [of course he took that one back, considering his parents would get involved]. Skipping out on child support and getting away with it, turning my sister, my baby sister, my best friend, completely against our family, and then completely taking her OUT of it. Jerking my mom around, jerking ME around, etc. I can't stand that guy. I have so much built up anger towards him that I am sizzling 24/7. And it sucks. I mean I hate the man that is my "father". I hate not having a dad. I always prayed and prayed my mom would remarry so I could have a new, REAL dad, but it didn't happen. Sometimes it hurts horribly, to think I don't really have a father. Usually I can ignore it. But then of course my sister moves in with him and she is the king of his world. she's spoiled, treated like such an angel, when all along he treated me like scum. He would hurt me and disrespect, then pull the whole "i love you and always care" card. BS. The day he can prove it I'll believe it.
But i was sitting on my bed today and I was writing out my prayer requests and just crying thinking about how my dad is totally screwing us [as in my family] over. and I looked over and suddenly it hit me like a brick and I just full out SOBBED. My bible was sitting next to me. And I realized even if my "dad" is gonna be a jerk, I'll always have my REAL dad. and that's God. And oh man did I cry. I've always had a relationship with the Lord but I mean He's my father and He wants to be and do for me exactly what I need. If I need a dad that's what He wants to be. If I need a friend, a protector, a THERAPIST, He is always there to be that. Man did that hit me hard. I wish that had truly sunken in years ago, so I hadn't had as much of my heart shattered. But at least I know now.
Just felt like sharing that... it was quite a hit to the gut.
Quite a nice hit to the gut :]
2 John 1:3 - Grace, mercy, and peace will be with you from God the Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in truth and love.
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