I will be here still

I have had a lot of moments since I got here where I wished someone at home would be here. My best friend. My girls. My dad. My small group leader. The people I find comfort and/or joy in. This often made me extremely homesick, because I COULDN'T have these people. I had a moment last night where all I wanted was to be home on the sofa, only seconds away from my family. But here I was instead, hours away from my loved ones.

While working on homework, I decided I would listen to the new Kelly Clarkson album since I haven't heard it that much. The song "If No One Will Listen" is the one that really stood out to me. This is the chorus:

If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you for what you really are
I will be here still

Obviously, Kelly Clarkson is not a Christian writer, so this was in no way her writing what God is saying to us, but that's how I took it. Because in reality, he is the only one who can REALLY say this. I will be here still...

This also goes back to something I am working through right now. I have had a lot of people walk out of my life and not love me like they should. I often wonder who will still be in my life in 20 years, 10 years, 2 years, 6 months even. I can't say. But no matter what, God will be here still. He will never leave me. I can be scared of losing loved ones, losing people who mean something to me. But no matter what, God will be here still. I find that extremely comforting, today especially, as I sit here missing loved ones like crazy. I am not alone, God will be here still.