After You

meanwhile back at my heart, I'm desperate for all that You are
undo me and take me apart
meanwhile back at my soul, mend me, please make me whole
You know just where to start


Every day I feel like I am one step closer to getting my life straightened out. I know I'll never figure it all out, and I won't always be happy or pleased with what's going on. But I can be peaceful. And I really feel like I'm getting there.

I'm not sure where I want to be when I'm older, or what job I want to have. I don't know what country I want to live in, or who I want to be in relationship with. I don't know anything about my future. I used to be such a control freak. There is no way I would have been okay with this just a few months ago. But I feel like I'm okay without knowing. I'm quite the planner, and I don't expect that to go away. But I won't be planning things like my future or what I'm going to do with my life. I think I've really given that up at this point.


I find myself searching for more and more ways to feel close to God. My relationship with Him has become more and more significant to my life, and now I find myself constantly in conversation with Him, thinking about Him, thanking Him. My dream is for him to become THE most significant relationship in my life, and I really feel like He's there now.



Let the songs I sing bring joy to You
Let the words I say confess my love
Let the notes I choose be Your favorite tune
Father, let my heart be after You