It always impresses me what having faith in God can do. The start of this week was terrible, probably the worst of my summer. I felt in the pits and on the point of depression, not wanting to get up or do anything or really move at all. But I trusted God and that He would teach me something out of this, and He has. For one, my relationship with Tim is a lot stronger. I think I finally learned that it is OKAY to disappoint him sometimes. I have always been so horrified by the thought of that because I was so scared he would walk away and I would lose him. Yet... here we are, a few days later, and I feel like we're even closer than before. You know why? Because not only do I trust him more, but I have way more faith in our relationship. Why do I think we can't make it through a measly fight? I mean more to him than that, and he means more to me than that, so of course we're going to make it through. Silly, childish fears. Thank you Lord for placing someone in my life who can show me the kind of love I can actually BELIEVE in. It's really an awesome feeling, knowing you are worth something, and being reminded of it.
So college is in 4 days. I have officially hit the point where I am CRAZY excited. I was so scared and dreading this so much, and I honestly thought my last few days here would be miserable. But I'm so happy and so ecstatic to go to college, that the bad feelings are being easily ignored. I officially finished packing tomorrow and I didn't feel bad about it, it just made me more excited. I can't wait to go!
College is seriously going to be completely amazing. I know I've been nervous and fearful about going so far away but God put me here for a reason, and if I'm missing everyone at home and scared of what's going to happen without me I'm not going to be listening to God, and I won't hear the purpose for all of this, and I won't learn or grow from it, or be able to use my gifts for God because I'm so focused on using them back at home.
4 days... I probably won't blog until after I am there. Can't wait!
2 comments:
I am glad you are excited about school but tell me how do you know you have finished packing tomorrow? It's still today?
hmm. weird. it was late... i must have been a wee bit tired
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