Sunrise

It's hard to begin to act and think differently when it is something you have done your entire life. For me, I had to DO things to make people accept me and for people to love me. I was always a DOING person, always trying to please everyone else. If someone didn't talk to me as much or treated me differently it was because there was a relational problem. Back then, there was no communication when something was wrong. We would just stop talking to each other, act passive aggressive until something would explode.

Sometimes it is really hard to tell if what is going on is conflict, or just life. I don't know if people aren't communicating, or if there is simply nothing to communicate.


I want my life to be different. I'm not okay with this. I don't know if the circumstances are going to change so it is up to me. Now I just have to figure out HOW to make it different.

I could definitely use a positive change. A sunrise on an otherwise gloomy morning. Could use that pretty badly right now