The irony of it all

I was sitting on facebook, messing around with pages and applications and talking to a few people, when I decided to update my fortune cookie. I clicked "get new fortune", and this is what I got; "stop sitting on the fence".

It cracked me up.

Our whole theme at CIY was MOVE, and do what God wants. Hand it over to Him and just RUN. I knew I was going to do it. The second night we were there I told God to fill me completely with His holy spirit, and that I was going to live for him 100%. So far, the change has gone well. The biggest thing I needed to work on was my anger. I have a thing with blowing steam by blowing UP, and I hate when I do that. It's the personality flaw that I can not STAND with myself. and, since I have been home, I've gotten frusturated and kind of ticked off, but I kept my cool. Where my anger comes out the most is at my mother, which is so wrong it's not even funny. She is the one who deserves the most love and care and respect of anybody I know, yet she's the one that I snap at constantly. And I know that has to change. So it is changing. and right now. God is really helping me know how to respond and react when people wrong me, and so far, so good. Hopefully that will keep working!

Another thing this week that was brought to my attention was living for him completely. I mean I already agreed to give up any career idea for Him and do what He wants me to [which is youth ministry] and for some reason I felt like that was enough. Like hey, I'm giving up my job to do a job for God, I'm living for Him.

Wrong.

Sure, my FUTURE was going to be for Him. My job/career that I would do my entire life would be the one He picked out for me. But that doesn't mean I'm LIVING for Him. Here I am, a Christ follower, who is going to go into ministry and do whatever He wants, yet some people have no idea I'm a follower. How can I say I'm living for Him when most people don't even know I go to church? So another goal I have coming off that trip is acting the part 24/7. At church, at school, at home, at my job, everywhere. I'll be the same person all the time, someone that I like and I know God is proud of. I usually am that person, but I slip up more than necessary. I'm so ready to hand it over and stand firm in my beliefs and be exactly who God wants me to be. I want to be someone He is proud of, someone He will stand up and applaud. I just want to make Him happy, because of everything He has done for me. It's the least I could do.

So there you go, my 2 main goals coming out of CIY 2008. I have so much support from so many people, and I am incredibly grateful for that. I have some awesome role models/friends in my life; I'm extremely blessed.

More updates later :]