Emotions

I, personally, am not a fan of emotions. They can be good, if you don't let them get the best of you. But I have not obtained that skill yet.

I hate to admit it, but I am a very sensitive person. I think it comes from my insecurities and my past; I've been hurt a lot, and have not completely healed from that, so it is easy to hurt me now.

One thing I am extremely sensitive to is when people don't like me. I hate when people dislike me. I know I know, it's normal, not everyone can get along with everyone. But it just really makes me itch when someone just doesn't like who I am.

Today I was confronted with a similar situation. I was supposed to hang out with my best friend on campus and 2 of our friends tonight. While talking about plans, my best friend hesitantly informs me that the other 2 girls messaged her to ask that it would just be my best friend going over, and not me.

This should be something I should shake off. This shouldn't be something that gets to me. But I am at a loss, sitting here trying to figure out why in the world that would be the case. And of course, the only reason that comes to mind: they must not like me. First off, it is an assumption. I don't know that that's the case. One of them I have been friends with since the start of the year. But when I think about it, I can't find any other reason for what they said. And it is so upsetting for me. I am praying to stop being anxious about it and just let it go, but like I said at the start, handling my emotions is not a skill I have really gotten a grasp on.

You can't do everything right. You can't please everyone.