Chosen

I haven't been doing a great job of reading my Bible the past few weeks, since my accountability partner and I decided to no longer be accountability partners. Right after we had decided that I went through a few rough patches, and my desire to talk to God or hear from God definitely increased. I've felt challenged over and over since I stopped reading to start again, and this week I finally caved. I was surprised at how relieved I was to read it again. I started in Proverbs, read through a few chapters, and read a few Psalms.



I am finding that my desire to grow is stronger now than it probably ever has been. I am leading groups to Haiti and leading teams at StuCo, but most importantly, I have influence on a lot of teenage girls. Between girls I would call sisters and girls I had led in small group at some point in time, I am shocked to find out how many of them still really look up to me.



I remember in junior high how easily it was for me to consider someone one of my role models. I wanted someone to look up to so badly. Sometimes I chose great influences, sometimes I chose really bad ones. Even still now, it is easy for me to meet someone and grow to respect and really admire them. I remember how important it was to my life growing up, and how important it is to my life now. And then I just feel blown away. Who am I to be influencing other people? How was I given the honor of being a role model?



This is a great, and humbling reminder that God chooses us. We can't buy these kind of honors, or even earn them. God CHOOSES us.



More often than not I don't feel like I deserve these girls' admiration. But this is where God has placed me, and I want to live up to that. Not so I can get a pat on the back or be the hero to many teens acros the nation. But simply because I love God. And this is how God is asking me to help Him. He doesn't NEED my help. He's LETTING me.



What a huge honor and huge responsibility, to be leading teenagers in their lives and their walks with Christ.