I have days where I open up my book and read 20 pages, and close the book without knowing what in the heck I just read. I have days where I sit in class and listen to students debate for half an hour, and leave having no idea what they were talking about. I have days where I feel like college is way too difficult, classes too hard, essays too long, books hard to interpret. I have days where I just went to pack up my room, get in my car, and go home. I have days where I am willing to turn in my life to Meijer and be a cashier for 60 years just so I don't have to do this.
It is so hard to keep yourself from lowering your standards when you find yourself up until 4 in the morning multiple nights a week reading things you dont understand and writing papers that sound nothing like you. And often just to get a paper back and have 5 points taken off here, 3 points taken off there, 4 on that mistake. I feel like I pour my freakin soul into my work, only to get told its not good enough, only average.
Who in the world invented college? I love to learn, but I really don't like to feel like an idiot.
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