Just a little spring cleaning

I'm taking a break from the never-ending job of organizing and cleaning my room to my own perfection [oh how I love having OCD] to think a little bit about my past.

I went back and read my blog from last year, and it irritated me beyond belief. I was informed that people were finding that blog instead of my real one [this one] and that bugged me. Because I am completely different, and frankly, I don't like who I was then. Over dramatic [though I do still slip, I must confess], immature, hurting... I just didn't like it, at all. A guy had way too much power over me. Seeing that now is sickening. The fact that I ever LET a guy have that much power is pretty pathetic. Let ANYONE have that power. Nobody but Christ should be able to control me and my moods and me emotions and my actions. No way.

But no worries! I figured out how to delete the blog. It's a nice feeling. I've wanted to get him and everything that happened as out of my life as I could. I had healed, gotten rid of everything he had given me, all reminders. Part of me thought maybe I should keep the journals, maybe I would want to look back at them. But as I think about it, those journals definitely weren't helping me move on.

Ta da! Last one is gone.
Nice feeling.
Just like cleaning out my room.
Which is going very well.

I finally [after a month of being in my own room] brought up my dresser. Yes, I have been going weeks without a dresser. No worries, my floor has done an excellent job.

When I brought up the dresser I was forced to move my book shelf to a different part of my room to fit my dresser. I cleaned off all of my brothers' books [it was their old room] and put them in our library and moved the book shelf. And then I realized I could put MY books on the shelf! [I know, I'm brilliant] I found all my books and stacked it up, covering almost 3 shelves, which is a lot. Now that I have all my books together, I am SO ready to start reading through all of them. Most of them I have gotten all the way through, but there are quite a few I bought or picked out of my mom's library that I have not gotten to. Books about religion, youth ministry, Christianity, helping with the bible, counseling others, and of course the dozens of book by Sarah Dessen, Stephenie Meyer, Jodi Picoult and Jennifer Weiner that I have grown to love on my own.

Something most people don't know about me: I am the biggest book worm known to man kind. People never guess that because I am extremely social and outgoing, but I look to books for everything. Advice, knowledge, an escape, anything. Usually I'm very pleased with what I find. And I am extremely excited to get back to reading as much as I did, now that my social life will die down a bit with school starting.


But for now, back to the room.
Now that I have books and CDs out of the way, on to clothes.
This should be fun.